A Bitter View

MERRY NEW YEAR!!!

      I hate when something makes me reminisce of a bad time in my life. Negative thoughts reoccur in my mind frequently; the extra baggage that I want to release but something within my psyche will not let go. I ask myself time & time again what is it that im doing to keep these thought in particular? The negative thoughts can happen at anytime while listening to music or watching TV. The negative avenue of Memory lane is something im familiar with. This extra baggage that my mind won’t release is what I like to call my obstacle in life. This to me puts emphasis on the saying “the biggest obstacle in life is you”; for a while I thought it was a crock but now see it could be true. Certain vibes like this can influence your next move and make you 2nd guess your feelings. This happens to me when I try to make a life changing situation which doesn't happen often; the thoughts can either help me which they seldom do or they can burden me in thinking what im doing isn't the right move. Sometimes i use them to my advantage like a quote from a movie or a song to be funny or kick alittle knowledge i repeat them if the moment serves well. My thoughts may make me giggle to myself or make me more depressed than i am. When a particular thought rushed in my head that I want gone. A quick shaking of my head like im waking up from being unconscious used to help alot. Sometimes the thoughts get so deep that a quick yell or holler would make me focus on the current task at hand. But nowadays I realize I look like an idiot doing things like that. Recently ive tried a new therapy to make the negative thoughts go away. Its pretty simple and right now it works pretty well. It works best when you’re alone and bored, When im out doors it scan be discreet also. What is this method I use? I extend my forearm raise my hand and extend my middle finger. That's right I middle finger my negative thoughts as to say Phuck you and go away! Its does look silly to give the finger to yourself. But im not nutzoid to do it in public and if it happens then I flick in with my hands in my pocket. It’s as if once its extended the thoughts leave immediately. I do believe that raising the finger is a negative thing in itself; but I feel if fighting the element with the same property works than I'll gladly do it. I hope that eventually once I get myself within more positive situation the dark memories will be less and less. I figure that many people have their ways of dealing with the bad times that come back in their minds. Now that im unemployed, these bad thoughts creep within my mind alot which i loathe when i cant benefit from them. I guess when the finger doesn't work I'll find a new way to deal with them.

      My drought was over temporarily my unemployment check came in! The first thing I did was go tot he bank and take out the money I needed to pay off with and alittle for myself. I decided my car could take the trip to Schaumburg to the CompUSA store so I can cop a new video card. So im rolling along I-94 in my 7 year old jalopy I take the express lane to avoid the big azz traffic buildup caused by the 18 wheelers on the local roads. I rode the express lane all the way through; which is what I shouldn't have done because the 94 breaks off in to the I-90 and I ended up in Niles. Since my legs were cramping up for sitting so long I said what the hell and decided to do my shopping there. Besides, There was a Comp USA there too. I copped my new video card at the same time remembering I didn't know which type I needed. Pci or Agp, I asked for help and I was told the Agp would be the better buy so now I have to return the card to exchange it. After that I stepped into their Best Buy to cop some new ink for my new printer and that was easily taken care of. After that I rode onto Barnes & Nobel's to check it out. There was alot worth copping. As usual I was being paranoid or the white folks were avoiding me, I didn't really care anyway. As I checked out the writers’ section of the store my eyes saw this nice tender-roni in front of me. She was light skinned (im a victim, sistas!) with auburn hair down to her neck, her lips were kissable, medium sized not full with peach colored lipstick. standing at a good 5’7” and fine, I was saying to myself wow maybe I should holler! Now my lack of self worth kicked into play and had me thinking about me having no game, no real money, no good looking ride. Why did I even think she would be into that before I even talked to her? Why didn't I just go for it and gave those thoughts the finger. Well then I thought about my boy Gerald (College Buddy) and how he get ladies; his charisma! He started every convo to any women he met with a “Hi” or “Whuts up“? And I thought it was the best move to make. As soon as I had the courage to open my mouth in comes this dude same height as the lady and talks to her for a bit. I quickly assumed they were together and moved on biting my lower lip and saying to myself (mm-mmm-mmmm!) I headed back into my car and proceeded on home. On the ryde back thoughts like finding a pub or a bar with open mic time. It’s just a step to meet one of my resolutions. I get home ready to head for bed and the venture back to Niles the next day...

      I Next day arose and it was time to Head back to Niles to return my Memory card. But first I had to meet up with an old internet friend like I promised since she was going to the Navy in San Diego. We met up at krispy Kreme and sat in her car and talked about this and that for about a good 2 hours. I had to end it thought since Rush hour was upon us and I needed to make the 45-minute trip. We said goodbye to each other and kissed... a good 8 times... (My first Kiss of the year and she was a damn good kisser too.) Then it was off I went to Niles again. The drive sucked, rush hour was upon us and what would’ve taken 45-min tops to reach Niles took damn near an hour. I walked into the store and showed them my item that was unopened they immediately let me go through and pick up what I needed. It was just my luck that they were out of cheap Agp Video Cards. So I picked one for 10 dollars more After that was taken care of I walked to the local Radio shack to buy a stereo headphone adapter so I can connect my computer to my stereo to rip tapes. Then afterwards I decided to take a drive around this north suburb so see if I become lucky and find a comic shop before I head home. My journey led me from Niles to Park Ridge to Oakbrook Terrace to Elk Grove Village to Schaumburg; whut a small ass world! I passed by alot of places that I applied my resume to and got turned down (bastards). But anyway I was in awe that I ended up in Schaumburg which I didn't realize that these suburbs were so connected; and since I was there I know where the local Comic book shop was so I ventured and copped my favorite books of the week. I then headed to one of my favorite fast food places in the area called Waldo’s their waffled French fries are the Shizzlul-SnipSnapSack! So I munched on that in the car as I headed to Tower Records. The last time I was at this particular spot there wasn't alot of empty stores about. Now the area has flourished with new stores and such. There was a new place called LaserLand, which specializes in Hong Kong and Anime Video. I was so tempted to go in and check it out but from what I could see it was rental only so I decided to look into it on the net before I go in next time I come around. I walked into Tower and the freak in me went to the porn section first. It’s funny because not only was I looking at the fine ladies on the videos but also some of the designs of the covers inspired the designer in me (who’d a thought?). Then I checked out the music and decided to cop my first albums of the year: Five Deez - Koolmotor & Superrappin Vol.2. What I really wanted was a classic album by Armand Van Helden and just my luck they didn't have it (ugh!) So I copped the 2 albums and headed home. On the road I decided to take the Toll road and it wasn't until I got to my 2nd toll that I look at my odometer to see I hit 100,000 miles! I drove alot in my 7 years with that car. I’m just glad it was still running; I hope that I can keep it running for a few more years like my mom’s last car, which lasted 11 years. Aw well I can hope, y’know?

      In this new decade when testosterone flies and your body gets in the “Fight or Flee” Response alot of people these days are quick to tussle with a foreign object for help. In other words THESE DAYS, MUHFUGGAS ARE SCARED TO TAKE AN ASS BEATING! There’s people packing knives, box cutters, Tasers, mace and pistols but nobody wants to use their fuggin tools god gave them; THEIR FISTS! Although some fools rather not have nothing if they got their crew with them. But all in all nobody want to grow up and fight their own fights. It’s evident that nobody taught anyone how to knock fool out. Hell, lets be real my dad never taught me. I guess this particular thing starts up in grade school and moves towards real life. When you won a fight you were the man that day, If you lost you were a fuggin joke and got laughed at; especially if you started the fight. The goriest thing i saw recently was when I was at a club and this white girl and a sista was arguing over a dude. the White girl persisted until she got rocked with a bottle over her face. All i saw was blood & teeth, It was a nasty site to beheld. I’m just glad it wasnt me. but I got into a few scraps in my day. I got a scar under my eye from one back in grade school that I lost. Yes I admit I lost some because that's what an adult can do. I admit my weaknesses as well as my faults. But nowadays people want win, period; and they’ll do it anyway possible. I guess that's where the weapons come in. I feel there more of a warning as if “don't Phuck with me” and that could be the case. But I've also notice those that scream their packing usually don't do shyt but talk. I do my best to avoid a fight, im a gentle giant. I hate conflict, but when its on imma beat that azz and plus I carry a 2 foot long folded steel club in case anyone wants to use anything on me. I’m not the one to kill or stab, im more of a break your bones kind of guy. I’ve been told that nobody would be crazy to pick a fight with me without something to back them up. I never brag myself or talk about what I have to give me an edge in any situation, but that's just me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 ME....

I sit here typing buzzed off 3 bottles of Mikes Hard lemonade, ending the day that wuz my birthday. I spent most of it doing nothing; I chilled most of the time watching kung-fu flicks on DVD enjoying the day. My pop gave me a card and after reading it I almost came to tears because the content showed that in my dads own silly way he was proud of me. Although I always knew he was unlike my mom who I had to ask. I returned a DSL modem that I didn't need back to Circuit City. They almost gave me trouble but they gave me my money back. I took that cash and copped some underground albums from Borders. When I came home I called my boy Wallace and we tripped over the first time my boys gave me a b-day party with a broke ass stripper (hot damn she wuz broke!) and how they rubbed it in with my boy Gerald who brought the ugly nasty thang over. All he could say was “She looked better in High School”. Then He went over the bachelor party that he tried to get me to go to but I wasn't around. Unfortunate that he broke down to me how it turned into a FreakFest which made me alittle upset but hey, maybe im better off not going anyway. SO then I had the urge for libations; I headed to Jewel for a case of Hoopers Hooch. I walked through the aisles and just my luck there was no more; but tha Mikes Hard Lemonade was on sale so I copped that. Then I got a call from my girl Keia and we talked about her man problems while my buzz from the liquor was working through me. And that's where I am now I hope Bricks B-day has gone well. I know my brother is mad because he hasn't been able to talk to me today. But he’ll be able to tomorrow though. It’s been a cool day for me. I thank god that im alive to see another one 4’sure. I toasted myself with an empty bottle and hoped that my future is a better one this year.

      Today the new DSL i just order through Office Depot came in, Unfortunatly i realized i never needed it. Since my DSL broke ive been rocking Dial up which is such a drag after your hooked on speed, y'know? Well I found the same modem on yahoo auctions for 50 bucks cheaper than whut i got it for. So that order is being proccessed in the meantime i had to turn it down. As i sit down writing now i said to myself I could've had a new modem again; but ultimatly 300 dollars aint worth it. especially since i dont have a job right now. I'm going to head downtown tomorrow to finalize payment options for my A+ certified class next week. It's Just my luck there down payment is 300 bucks. But i feel its a worthy investment. Yesterday, i got turned down by 2 places that were hiring. It's a new experience for me, i've never seen any store that had signs in the window that said "NOT HIRING" before. This economy sucks right now, who do ya blame? My brothers blame the Terrorists for taking it over the top. Others ive talked to blame Bush himself. Talking to a lady friend of mine who works at a telephone company, she told me that they let people go knowing that they needed more help. Yet they're on a hiring freeze; I think thats so rediculous. So the people that keep their work are overworked in the meantime. So does the corporate world take some blame too? My bro told me that one of his boys quit his job because they told him to work 3 shifts to compensate the loss of people. I know that makes no sense to make someone give up their social life in order to keep a job. Aw well. Im gonna sleep this cold off maybe i'll have more to talk about later on. After the Kids in the hall goes off i'm gonna risk the snowstorm coming out way and get my batch of comics this week.... lata

      The past few days ive been battling a head cold. It’s just about over with but now my nose feels like a flowing river similar to Desperate Times My grandmother keeps telling me to drink more juices and water, I guess I better, I think i'm developing a cough. I headed downtown yesterday to finalize the payments for the A+ certification class I wanted to take. I put 300 Down and afterwards its 120 a month. WHUT A BARGAIN! I went to Barnes and nobels today and i flipped through the work book that the class uses. From what i skimmed it doesnt seem pretty hard to learn, I feel im ready for a new challenge anyway. When that was taken care of I headed to the Toys R Us to see if Grand Theft Auto 3 is sold out there. It was which was funny, I was tempted to cop it months before it got the public hype, Now that its selling out and the local news stations are telling the ignorant (I say that because the game is already rated mature) Don't buy this game cause of its influences. My bro and I agreed that since the game has a mature label its nobody’s fault but the parents who buy it and pay the warnings no mind; sorta like cigarettes. Now I notice that Max Payne is following in its footsteps, I wish I could buy both but my moneys too tight right now.

I got a call from a lady friend and we talked about how I never lived wild. I countered by saying what is your definition of “wild“? Yeah its true I never went out alot, but I chose to be this way. I’m mostly a homebody I can’t lie and I realize I do need to get out alittle more and I will soon. I do have a sort of restraint in whut I do everyday but I believe everyone does. I’ve always felt that I could never find that middle ground to be safe in. When I try to get wild I end up getting into fights or get ignored. I loathe to do both. I read through Ask men in order to break away from my shyness/introverted behavior a method is to create an alter ego like many rappers do. I guess that's how I came up with Sinsear/Sinro respectively. In a way it helps me release my tension and say whut I feel although I still get ignored but now I throw across Confidence and assertiveness that I didn't portray before. Even on this blog scene ive said a couple of things I guess offended others and had my comments erased (2 in particular I aint sayin no names to start beef). I just want to make sure that I don't end up in a Mid-life crisis.

I went to Suncoast to cop American pie 2. As I walked in I heard familiar dialect from a movie “Was Once A Man, yessssssssssssss...”, yep G.I.JOE the movie was on and man did I reminisce when I first saw it on Channel 9, 6:00 pm back in 88 or was it 87? Either way it was cool trippin over the different parts of the flick. Then the Clerk cuts off the movie and pops in an import of Kamen Rider. Its funny that this Power Rangers material show about a teenager that changes into a armored humanoid bug warrior is like a best watched soap-opera overseas. But whut was funnier was the commercials in-between the show, Seeing the Japanese Ronald McDonald was a priceless moment. He FREAKIN FLIES! Why doesn't our Ronald McDonald do that, Singing about put a damn smile on. Anyway I took the dvd home and watched it and I have to admit I like it better than the first. They didn't focus on the guys trying to get laid; they focused more on sex within relationships, how sweet. My lady friend then wanted to know why men so sex driven, I told her she was asking the wrong guy. I’m basically “born again virgin”. Maybe when I get lucky I can answer that.

      Today I spent the day kicking it at home finishing my stack of comics of the week. Then I kicked it on he computer for awhile to do what I haven't done in a while: making blends. I downloaded the mixmeister program recommended by Dj Vlad. It took me a while to get the hang of it but I completed my first blend of the year, which is “Bad Intentions” & “Burn "and I have to admit I'm pretty damn proud of it. The BPM beat mixing option makes it pretty easy to make them. I’ll definitely do another one very soon. Since M.L.K. B-Day is tomorrow the A+ class is pushed back to the week of the 28th, which is just fine with me. It gives me more of an opportunity to look for a gift for my moms on her birthday, which is this Thursday. Well I know alot of dudes who lost cash yesterday; the bears lost to the eagles. A few people said the lead to their fall was the injury of the quarterback. Ya gotta admit nobody expected them to get this far, But how ironic that yesterday they played so lousy than throughout the season that it could‘ve been luck that got them this far. Well at least Green Bay got their asses whuped also so they won’t advance either. How funny that their loss was similar to the Cubs back a year ago. Well I see right now the Bulls aren't ever gonna be Shyt, so I guess the next team to go to the playoffs and blow their chance is probably the BlackHawks. At least the Fire is the champions. HA! Like anybody cares. After the game they started taking down Soldier Field. It sucks to see a landmark like that go. As long as ive been on this earth that field has been a mainstay in my stable ground of life. I feel really bad because i've never been able to set foot inside it. Ive been to comiskey park and the Chicago Stadium before they took them down and i dont feel so bad about those because i still have those memories within me to remember them by wether they were good or bad. But i have walked around it, passed by it thousands of times but never in it. All i can go by is what i saw on tv. I know that there gonna rebuild the place but thats not the point. Maybe i'm just rambling. Aw well, goodbye Soldier Field. I'll miss your original presence.

      I took my car to get its emissions test. Thank god my ryde passed! That's another thing I don't have to worry about. I then headed off to the Hallmark and copped a birthday card for my mom who's b-day is Thursday. And since I was there I copped 2 Valentines Day cards for my Grammy and my moms while I was at it. I got in my car headed home hoping to beat the UPS to my door to get my new DSL modem which i missed anyway; on the radio I heard a commercial about Anger disorder and I immediately thought about my brother. Y’see yesterday I promised him to take him to RadioShack to get a job. Thinking there wasn't a problem I took the main streets to end up getting delayed by a train. We go there and just our luck they started sharp and wouldn't let him in. He begged and pleaded but no avail. As we walked to the car she snaps at me and blames me for making him late. Through the ride home he complains about how his life sucks and what he doesn't want. I got fed up and took him home telling him the shut his mouth or I'd make him walk wherever we were. As he got out the door he said nasty like “I’ll call you when I need you.” After putting up with him for years I let him feel it. I said “You sorry sad sack of sperm, your pitiful, your a follower and the more you talk the more you put your foot in your mouth! You’re a liar and a lazy azz!” And drove off. I was seconds from just calling him a bytch (ungratefull azz nigga), but I didn't want my thugcydal tendencies to show. I hate to even get angry because I get so irrational to the point I can’t even talk straight. And in cases like that I want to have control with out blowing my top. But I guess I surrendered to those feelings that I don't like to express. It wont last long he’ll call me later and apologize anyway like nothing happens. Family, no matter whut they do you or how crappy they treat you cant get rid of them.

      If you had an accident that took away one of your senses, which one would you think you could use the least? I choose the sense of taste; it would help me loose weight. *smirk* The 2 key senses: Sight & Sound are irreplaceable senses. The world wouldn't be as fruitful without them. I thank god that I have my senses to enjoy life as it is and what it can be with them. They say when a person is either blind or deaf their other senses kick in and become stronger 10x fold. We all know that's a lie (unless your name was Matt Murdock) but we say that so we don't feel so sorry for the individuals. But to be in their shoes, how would you function if the next day you couldn't see or couldn't hear a thing? Having these senses makes think about a situation like that very hard to think about. Not being able to read my comics ever again or watch TV on my own; HELL even not to see a woman's naked glistling body makes me cringe (got carried away...). Not being able to hear music, to hear comedy or to hear a simple good morning from a warm voice is a drastic, depressing thing. I hope that never happens to me in any way. When I worked at hooters One of the waitresses was deaf in her left ear. One particular time I called her name and when she didn't come I got aggravated and asked her if what I heard about her ear was true. Once I found out I felt bad, I almost cussed her out thinking she was ignoring me. I appreciate the experience because it taught me patience with other who I guess aren't 100%. I still got more to learn on that note. Tonight I’ll say a prayer for my brother, The doctor told him they couldn't salvage sight in his right eye; he is now forever blind in that eye. My mother is now on a suing spree and the situation has got me mad depressed. I regret now that I snapped at him like that, knowing how he went through 3 surgeries to try to save his vision. I’ll say a prayer for myself to give thanks for what I have in my life. I appreciate that I still have all my senses and I hope to keep them for a long time.

1. You Need A Job
Most of the time lades expect you to pay their way, like they don't believe in going dutch. It all goes down to ladies are cheaper than you. She’ll want go out and kick it alot and ultimately to spend your money like their presence is payment enough. So you need currency coming in, because you will be spending more that she will. Having a job shows that you can handle a day 2-day scheme.

2. You Need A Car.
Y’see women don't like to drive, they expect you to be a cab for them and drive them around every place. Plus like #1 they always want to go out and kick it somewhere most of the time at your expense. If ya can’t drive then ya better have a chauffeur because ladies won’t accept bus passes unfortunately. The only alternative is to have money for a cab but that option will definitely whittle away also.

3. You need your own Place.
This is the last one to have, ladies like to come over and take over your shyt. They love to redecorate and keep their personal stuff over even when they haven't moved in. The more nice and clean your apartment is the more she won’t leave you when times get rough between the two of you. Keeping your own place is the ultimate in responsibility and shows you can keep the bills paid which in their eyes husband material.

**Optional but essential**

4. Disease free.
I call this one an optional because it tests their psyche and what they would do. Not every woman is looking for sexual relationship, But this also tests the ignorance of ladies also. You could be perfect in a woman’s eyes and she may approach you. Now if you become noble and decided to tell her your condition if you have one; she will dissapear faster than you can say “but”. That's why most people with STD’s don't tell their significant other until their deep within the relationship. Why? Because they know that once they tell you there's a 95% that you’ll leave and even they get lonely too. By telling them later on give the other who is disease free a decision. Is the relationship worth staying or do you need what they can’t give you?

      Today I decided to take advantage of the weather, but ended up at the mall checking out dvd’s to take home. Thumbing through the cases, a Slim Shady look-alike stepped to me and asked me “do you know some good Action movies besides these?” And I see within his hand 3 movies. The main one was the (bootie) Hot boys dvd starring Snoop Dogg, Master P & Silkk da shocker. Now anyone who knows me, knows that I don't support anything having to do with No-Limit. Plus I usually don't like to watch Gangsta flicks anyway. But I told him the only one I watched that I would recommend was Belly. He quickly replied back “I never saw that“. I gave him reassurance that if he was into Dmx & Nas then it was the movie to get. When I told hi he put back the Hot boys movie and the Eminem dvd underneath and picked up belly. He looks at the Boyz n the Hood cover next to him and says "Dude looks like Eazy-E with the jheri Curl..." When I told him that was Ice cube he started trippin. Being young he was only familiar with his "Craig from Friday" look and not when he was in his N.W.A. days. He then tells me about who he likes in rap and why he rocks his Silk baby blue Jumpsuit and his Silver (supposedly platinum) cross necklace. He was coordinated from head to toe, we then talked alittle about the jay-z & nas beef. He was a Jay-z fan and felt that Superugly was the best yet. When I told him that Nas’ Ether was the last reply to hova he sounded disappointed. Then with a very brief discussion on kung-fu flicks he slipped away. Aw well, I hope the little guy enjoyed the movie. the Anime section was being hoarded by 2 young ladies looking for new stuff. They looked to be about 18-20 which was cool. I was glad to see ladies into the same stuff as I am; unfortunately their were only into the “Shonen” type (female mushy stuff if im not mistaken) of anime and those are too cheesy for me to even watch.. but the short one wanted to cop Robotech, but the big one quickly snapped “I cant stand Robotech, Please don't get it!” I just smiled and walked away to let them continue. I walked out onto some exhibition tables selling African beads and incense. I’ve always been interested in rocking beads but I realized my problem with jewelry. I never bought any because I couldn't keep them on my body long enough. When I wear watches or necklaces I get a sort of caved in feeling and I take them off afterwards. I Do like them and wouldn't mind having one but I realize I wouldn't keep it on for long so I let it go and moved on. I headed to circuit city to check out a scanner for 50 bucks that I saw the other week. IT was gone, but there was a open box scanner for 65 bucks that I might cop tomorrow. I know that I could use one I want to start my own web/desktop publishing business and I feel I need 3 things right now to really get it started: 1. A scanner 2. A box of clip art 3. cell phone. Thanks to my cousin I have a printer so I can make flyers and business cards. I have about 5 business card layouts because I wasn't happy with them. I should really go for simplicity anyway. I get home and my dad has told me that my bro Ronnie has called me twice. I know Ron will call again and two hours later he did. He wondered why I sounded tired and I told him “you are not my woman, you're gonna have to chill calling me so many times in a day.” I got annoyed with him calling so many times talking about nothing. He tells me that since he's out of a job and has nobody to talk to he tried to talk to me. My Cousin is visiting from Minnesota, I’m not sure if she brought her kids though. There not staying over so im not caring. My new DSL modem came in, things are somewhat normal again. Monday, I start the A+ class, I hope that I can handle it. It’ll be good for me to get out again on a full time basis. Maybe it’ll put some courage and incentive in me to go out and do things alone more.

The class is great, Yesterday have met assortment of personalities that i’m gonna encounter through the week. The know it all, to the no freaking clue. I out of the six students fill in that void as the level head trying to let the teacher teach. I was alittle angry because i wasnt told I’d have to pay for my tests which is $132 bucks for 2 tests in order to get certified. We went through 7 chapters already, which is good for a weeks time. I figgured wed run 5 chapters a day since there was 22 chapters in the book (big azz book too!). Today marks now 15 chapters finished, tomorrow is gonna be the start of more hands on training. The class is a freaking 8 hours, like a work day. In order to prepare for the 2 tests were gonna take we have to cram whatever we can inbetween that time. We were told the best time to take the test is right after the class is over because it'll still be within our heads. In between our 2 breaks and Lunch i head back and forth to the inhouse snack store for some Nantucket Half & Half to gulp inbetween the lessons. The people who I let know have given me good encouragement to pass the test and i really appreciate that. I know when the tests come it'll take all the positivity i can muster to make somehting happen. In the meantime, ive been focusing on the class so i havent been writing as much as i should. I have 3 good topics to rip into but i'll save them for next week. Im a lazy bastard, and theres many a time when ive had something to write about but didnt because i couldnt pull myself to the computer to do it. I guess its the man in me.

Oh joy, Im kool azz Trent. The guy Daria has a Crush on, Her Best Friends' Brother. At least I'd have a Purpose.