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October 2, 2002

alittle something in the past...

I don’t why this particular moment in my life is floating in my head right now; but I said hell, why not share it. When I worked at hooters there was this straight street Negro named Stan. We really didn’t get along because we were so damn different. If being streetwise were available as a degree he’d have a masters. That was as far as my admiration for how he lived goes. One particular day we were both working the Grill & fryers on the day shift. One particular Petite cutie (fuggit I forgot her name.) used to flirt with Stan heavily, even though everyone knew he was married with kids. The main thing she used to do is send him little post-it notes of her order followed with a wink and a kiss his way which made him feel like a pimp no-doubt. He asks me over to his spot while we were clear of orders and let me take a look at his note. “I think that Broad is a witch cuz she keeps writing some weird shit on these notes…” as I read all it contained was please have soso’s order to go. XXX OOO. HE asks me what did those X’s & O’s mean I did my best not to laugh and contained myself when I told him those meant “Kisses & Hugs” Afterwards he comes back with “I’m from the ghetto, I don’t know about that shit!” As I went back to my cooking post I said to myself I try my best not to take for face value people’s intelligence but that was pretty silly…

Posted on October 2, 2002 9:59 PM | | Comments (0)

October 3, 2002

MUTHAFUGG IT!!

My Unemployment benefits is now exhausted. I'm off to hustling. Wish me luck!

Posted on October 3, 2002 5:40 PM | | Comments (0)

October 5, 2002

A new short term thought...

I know responsibility makes you a man but right now i feel like blaming someone for how my life is going right now and my sniper mark is on the president at the moment. If i was able to meet him; i'd shake his hand and smile in his face like everythings peachy keen then all of a sudden grab him by the collar, look him in the fuggin eyes and yell as loud and serious as i can (like Chris Farley back in SNL) "YOU RUINED MY LIFE!!!"

Posted on October 5, 2002 8:41 PM | | Comments (0)

October 7, 2002

DAY 1 (Chronicalling my job search)

I hit the pavement signing applications at about 3 restaurants, 2 general labor temp agencies and 3 department stores today. If I keep up this pace I can land something by next week. Wal-mart is having a seasonal job fair next Monday so I took an application and will have it ready by then. Its still the first 2 weeks of the month so I'm staying positive I can land something decent. Tomorrow is the NAACP career fair at Navy Pier, I got my head shaved, dress shirt & slacks ironed. I’m revising my resume for this event also. I’m going to need all the help I can get.

Posted on October 7, 2002 8:04 PM | | Comments (0)

October 8, 2002

DAY 2 (The Job Fair)

We started hereI was hoping to get my foot in the door somewhere and reenter the work force. All in all I anticipated a good day with good results. I hate when im wrong. I brought my digital camera along and decided to put it to use and snap pictures of Navy Pier. I now can say I have quite a few of those along with some pic of downtown Chicago as I saw fit. Can you believe this shyt? Soon as I walk up the stairs there’s a line going down the hall. I came, I saw and knew this was going to be a tough day. Throughout the line I could feel everyone was in the same predicament as myself. What felt like an hour in line moved rather fast.

THEN we waited here some more...We ended up in a 2nd Line before we go inside. WTF?? THIS IS A FUGGIN JOB FAIR NOT GREAT AMERICA! Why we are in line for another half hour really ticks me off. Some people decided to get out the line and sneak into the fair. Its was comedy how one cat left the line 3 times to get a drink of water and on the 3rd visit to the fountain, he never came back! I was tempted myself to do the same thing but A big brother like myself would be easy to spot by the security.

TILL we were finally in!!We finally got in and by that time, my feet and lower back ached for standing so long. I found the strength to go to as many booths as I could and submit my resume. I got just about the same Bs in every rep I talked to: “Were not looking for anyone in the IT field, But visit our website…” Like a record like clockwork. I felt as if I was throwing a pebble against a steel wall. After while I endured all I could and headed home; If I knew the fair would be like this I would’ve drove. Seeing as many people that was there shows how critical & serious things are getting. And man…too many pretty ladies were there also, which made me wish this wasn’t a business affair.

Posted on October 8, 2002 8:40 PM | | Comments (0)

October 9, 2002

DAY 3 (Keeping the Faith)

I applied to 2 restaurants and 2 department stores. I was turned away from a restaurant and a temp agency because they don’t accept applications at certain times. I filled out an application card at Franks nursery & crafts, hoping I could land a temporary stock position. The manager looked at the card and saw my work history and asked me “you know your overqualified for this, right?” lol, no shyt? Just my luck she wasn't looking for stock guys which surprised me, since Christmas was coming up and Franks are know to stack up to 7 or more fully decorated plastic trees for display. Aw well...

Posted on October 9, 2002 11:06 PM | | Comments (0)

October 10, 2002

DAY 4 (search is over)

I came back to Value City to turn in my application and by coincidence the general manager was taking her cigarette break. After skimming the app she invited me into her office where I signed a more complete application with personality test (ugh!). Despite the test it seems like I’m in like Flynn and start orientation for early morning stock Tuesday afternoon. I guess I can now rest easy, no more stress & worry that I’ve completed my mini mission. I’d better get myself into the mental state to handle this job. I realize this is better than nothing, best believe I’m appreciative. I know that my computer time will be limited now & it’ll also be great not to wake up to my gm’s nagging & complaining. Yet again, i've said myself from a nasty fall on the “ice” that I was under. So far I’ve only told three people, I’ve got one more to tell before the night is done. I’ll keep my Dad and Grammy in the dark till the day before. Lol…

Posted on October 10, 2002 8:57 PM | | Comments (0)

October 12, 2002

hey you, guyyyyyyyyyyyyys!

While I try to find out why my guestbook & comments aren't working. I just wanted to take this time out to thank everyone who congratulated me on my job search. The Never say die side of myself lets me know this is temporarily and this job is a minor setback to where I want to be; and i'm determined to get back there if I can help it. I appreciate the support. :>

Posted on October 12, 2002 9:54 AM | | Comments (0)

October 15, 2002

I got so much trouble on my mind...

I feel like snapping.

I feel like blowing my fuggin top.

I feel like Gohan in Dragonball Z after Cell smashed Android 18’s head with his foot.

I still don’t have a job at the moment. I entered Value city and talked to the manager and she gave me the info that I should’ve gotten a call on when the Orientation takes place.

I’m back to restarting the countdown, and im back to submitting apps again.

I can’t believe working at a fast food sounds real good now.

I can’t believe Im still in the same place I am now with no progression.

I just can’t win.

Posted on October 15, 2002 7:27 PM | | Comments (0)

October 17, 2002

DAY 6 (So Much Bullsh*t)

I can’t get mad; I can’t show how I feel. I get so sick of having so many things ova my head. Im a man, fuk dat im not even half of a man right now. People telling me to not worry but I gotta worry I got bills to pay, id be in worse shape if I was with kids. There was a job fair today that took place in Glen Ellyn. Which is in the northwest burbs. The way my car has been acting I couldn’t afford to take it that far. In the meantime I applied to 2 more wal-marts, a books-a-million, 1 Warehouse music, 1 Carson Pirie Scott & Home Depot. I’m so full of frustration that I refused my brother’s request for a ride to School & junk. Money’s getting real low, and im not supposed to worry. My boy hooked me up with 2 more job leads for what good they’ll do. I hit the Job boards yesterday, downtown at the Board of Education and my school; neither were any help.

Posted on October 17, 2002 9:42 PM | | Comments (0)

October 18, 2002

DAY 7 (getting desperate)

Today I was in a better mood and took my bro to school since my mom’s car is in the shop. After I took him home I headed to the new TGI Fridays for my interview. I met up with the Kitchen manager who reviewed my application. When he saw what I’ve been doing for the past 3-½ years his face turned into a grim disgust in a way. He asked me when was the last time I worked in a restaurant and how long I’ve been out of work. His face got drooped some more. To make a long story short; im back on the grind again. Is this the part where I continue to be positive?

Posted on October 18, 2002 10:46 PM | | Comments (0)

October 21, 2002

DAY 8 ( Keeping it moving)

I spent my weekend faxing resumes. Since I'm real low on cash I had to become creative and use shareware to send them. I wonder why didn't I try this sooner. Today I was back on the grind again and submitted more applications. I did a few calls to the temp agencies for any progress and of course there wasn't any. If there's anything positive out of this is that I've lost 10lbs in this search so far. The loss comes out of being too depressed & upset to eat. I've still got 2 good weeks before bills are due I think I can land something before then, if it even matters...

Posted on October 21, 2002 10:51 PM | | Comments (0)

October 22, 2002

Passing along a little inspiration:

Music is one of the main things that’s keeping me from having a 2nd nervous breakdown, especially right now in my life. With the free time I have and when I’m just frustrated a get to playing some music to put me in a zone. Yeah, music is one of my only friends right now and this month alone ive needed it more than ever. My mood is fueled depending on how im feeling and what I want to play. This month has made me go mix crazy and I decided to add my mixes for next month along with the present. I also decided to make a 60-minute (24mb) 80’s old school mix for all who’s interested.

Posted on October 22, 2002 11:37 AM | | Comments (0)

October 24, 2002

DAY 11 (In Perspective)

Yesterday I got a call from a Company in the far north burbs for an interview. My first call in 9 ½ months, I quickly accepted a time and got ready the next morning. I got the map to get there and realized it was an hour and 45 minutes to get there; minus the morning rush which took me an extra hour. I took off at 8:30, arrived at 11:30 for an interview that was supposed to take place at 10. Anyway, the interview went pretty well and we both agreed to give a day to decide the next move. I would love to say there is nothing to decide but ultimately there is. Estimating the time factor to get there if I were to land a gig there puts me in hesitation. I looked up train rides to see if that would give me more of an edge but that still wouldn’t help me without getting a cab. I’m really dealing with the boonies here and for once the cash may not help going that far. On my way home I took the long way back (21st Halsted to 143rd) to think about it and consider my options. Now that’s left for me to do is sleep on it.

Posted on October 24, 2002 8:21 PM | | Comments (0)

October 28, 2002

Day 15 (Making due)

Well today was the day I was supposed to get a call, and Yet again I didn’t get squat. After 11pm I called them to let them know I was still interested. The receptionist let me know that she would tell my interviewer my decision. On that note I headed out for App hunting again. I hit 2 Grocery stores and 1 restaurant. I also signed an application at a security firm. As I left a lady who needed a ride stopped me, I look at this situation as my yearly seasonal help to a stranger. She got in the car and started talking about her family life & her house at the ‘Gardens’ while I listened. She offered me some food at McDonalds but I passed on her offer, I didn’t know why but she made me slightly uncomfortable and all I wanted to do was get to her destination. After that was done I headed home and talked to my cousins about some jobs. My pops realized im trying my best to find a gig so he told me he’d take care of my side of the bills. I can’t be anymore thankful than to keep on searching.

Posted on October 28, 2002 6:17 PM | | Comments (0)

October 30, 2002

Day 17 (looking grim)

I didn’t think id have to do it but it was inevitable. I went back to Hooters to talk to The Gm who I worked with (and didn’t get along with) when he was just an assistant manager 5 years ago. I got to the point and asked him if he needed any kitchen help and he remembered why I left in the first place (which I was ready for) and asked “Times are Tough, huh?” We chewed the rug a bit more and to my surprise he couldn’t do anything for me. We shook hands afterward and I left. I realized I was on a grind again so I applied at 2 grocery stores and 1 restaurant. I headed home earlier than usual and spent the rest of the time faxing and emailing resumes. My moms rubbed it in my face again and asked me if I would get a job soon. I’m starting to get really offended…

Posted on October 30, 2002 6:13 PM | | Comments (0)

October 31, 2002

Here goes a 1-2-3 and...

Jay's like King Midas, as I was told/ everything that he touched turned to gold./ He's the greatest of the great, get it straight he's great./ Claim fame cause his name is known in every state./ His name is Jay to see him play will make you say:/ "God damn, that DJ made my day!"

January 21, 1965 - October 30, 2002
Rest in Peace Jam Master

Posted on October 31, 2002 5:12 PM | | Comments (0)

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