I can’t get mad; I can’t show how I feel. I get so sick of having so many things ova my head. Im a man, fuk dat im not even half of a man right now. People telling me to not worry but I gotta worry I got bills to pay, id be in worse shape if I was with kids. There was a job fair today that took place in Glen Ellyn. Which is in the northwest burbs. The way my car has been acting I couldn’t afford to take it that far. In the meantime I applied to 2 more wal-marts, a books-a-million, 1 Warehouse music, 1 Carson Pirie Scott & Home Depot. I’m so full of frustration that I refused my brother’s request for a ride to School & junk. Money’s getting real low, and im not supposed to worry. My boy hooked me up with 2 more job leads for what good they’ll do. I hit the Job boards yesterday, downtown at the Board of Education and my school; neither were any help.