Man I thought I’d never say this about myself. But im truly fucking up. I need to prioritize and organize myself. On the route im going I’m becoming my own worst enemy if im not already.
The interview went good. Although I was already outed for not knowing the programs that they wanted (I’m not being negative, he told me) He did give me credit for going over the web site and bringing up particular elements that he over looked or didn’t consider. Well I’m just glad I was considered. So far I have been interviewed for a fulltime position twice this year once a month and I hope the streak continues.
The trip downtown was nice and to have my feet walk along Michigan ave and Wabash again felt good. I walked past my school and decided not to visit I saw from the outsides that a lot of the interior has changed and I aint gonna lie the security guard was cute as hell. It was around 11:00 am when I walked past and around that time peeps are scrambling for their classes. I went into one of my favorite spots downtown (DePaul University Center) to check out the Afrocentric Bookstore which has been closed down to my dismay. Damn, first the Crows Nest goes under and now this. I’m glad that Tower stayed open downtown too. I saw that they moved Most of the music upstairs while the movies were moved down. Even the Porno. Out in the Open at the end of the aisle. My walk to the Randolph Metra station I saw the constructor have been busy. The station is more futuristic looking but now with less room to move about.
Finishing up my assignments for my class today caused me to be over 30 minutes late I decided to wait out till break time to come in so I chilled at the door. Just my luck that He lets everyone out early so I turn in my assignment anyway too bad my shit looks rushed unlike others. I remembered this was the week of midterm review so I asked a classmate for her notes to scan and review. I didn’t check the scanner before I ran them all through now they look too awful to read. I offered my notes from a previous class that she missed but I warned her that my writing isn’t as good as hers. I guess im going to have to wing it.
I noticed a girl today walking to a classroom that looked a lot like a female I used to know at my previous school. If she’s getting her Masters as well, more power to her. Then I remembered I tried to talk to her as well. She turned me down but it was one of the nicest rejections I’ve ever received (I can count them on one hand) Maybe I should’ve said something but past is the past so fuck it.
My Stepfather or should I say my brother’s father came over and help out with our place which I appreciated. He built us a new shelf to place our food on and fixed a trouble spot on our computer desk. I haven’t cleaned the house in a week and it shows. That’s a Helpful guy.
I turned down teaching for 2 days straight. The lady who gives the assignments over the phone got all pouty when I refused. I need the money too but its come to appoint I cant deal with the shit anymore. I’ve gotten so sick of dreading the 6 in the morning phone calls; coming home after the assignments to headaches, face throbbing and feeling of my body’s energy being drained that I have to sleep for a few hours before I go to work. I need an escape. I'll find it eventually.