A Bitter View

Friday night I have to say was one of my best moments of the year so far. Me and my boys got together to try and catch a clip to see Sin City. I was in personal conflict because my money was low but I said fuck it and decided to risk it. I didn’t know if I was to get to see all my homies again in one place not locked up by the responsibilities of married life. Times like this make me glad I’m single. Any way once I got there I met up with some of my peeps and they quickly informed me that the first showing was sold out. The next filming conflicted with picking up my bro from work like I promised. All I knew was that I wasn’t going to see the flick this night. We all decided to chill for an hour at the local restaurant while we wait. We caught up on old times and some of the new. Our biggest surprise was how we're all men in our 30’s with degrees and we’re not able to put them to use. It shows that some of us are bitter (like me) while others just go with the flow since they have other things to worry about for the moment. Once time came we all said our “lata’s” and headed back to the Theatre while I headed to the parking lot. Thankfully for only staying 5 minutes I got to leave on only 2 bucks, Chicago Parking fees are a bitch. Of course we all wondered when we can do something like this again. Aw well, Like Chic; Good times!

Ok, who thought of last week's Episode of South Park when seeing this?

Platinum on the way. Get ready for "Pimp My PSP" on MTV soon. lol

That’s what my bro says every time he sees the Axe body spray commercials where the broads tackle and impose themselves upon the user. I keep telling him that it doesn’t work only if you believe it does. The fact that he repeats it shows how desperate he is to get that way. Aw well I was never good in that territory so I can’t tell him shit.

Having out discussions in the cafeteria, my manager and me with his boy was dwelling on a lot of topics. “How to always tell everyone your broke” How women are freaks but insecure because of the double standard” Shit like that, but the main conversation that stuck in my head was how the dude explained how to tell shady folks. Using his father’s southern logic he summed it up in a simple sentence. “Never trust anyone who wont look you in the eye”

Now when I heard that at first what came to my head are 2 things. One a lot of insecure people don’t do that so how can you tell? And the second being that it sounds like pimp shit. Now to me that resembles disrespect since eye contact is not made and plus the fact that those who don’t, have a tendency to keep their conversation with you short. In the simplest of terms if they won’t do either; they don’t like the sight of you and anyone who looks like you for that matter.

As he was kicking this piece of game I got conscious and focused on his eyes more myself. The last thing I want to be viewed as by people who don’t know me as a shady muhfugga. Now I feel this can go in a total new direction depending on your situation. For example: at work. I learned the shadiest of people are the one who will smile in your face and then talk out their neck when you’re now in their presence. This is a facet that needs to be studied more. I’ll take it to heart regardless.

A remarkable dilemma I must day. Today was the day I had to do my Television Production Final project and set up a 15 minute movie review show. Just as I suspected Murphy’s Law showed its ass today! We had no teleprompter, the video clips weren’t finished and one of the talents’ mic broke during filming. Still through god willing and blessings we pulled it off and I was ready to collapse, why? Because within a team of 4 I did about 70% of the work. I had to hog the ball and carry the team like Jordan during most of the 80’s. I completed the clips the music which was generally the hard work. My teammates minus one did most of the typing which was great even though I proofread. The three of us did out thing and despite our problems today we pulled out. Now left a new problem. The girls confronted me (I was the only male on the team) about the last member who did nothing to help us and was as useful as a shredded sponge during filming. The ball is in my court again. Should we confront the instructor and point out that she did nothing or carry her on or back like a casualty in a war? I’m torn because I’ve been in that same position before and the slack was taken for me; a few times I might say. Those times were when I was younger but I feel they have merit. I have yet to give up my decision.

A frequent visitor of the computer lab that I talk to a lot came to me with a new phrase that she just learned. “Big Daddy” I instantly said “oh lawd” and she asked me if she should use it with her boyfriend. I told her feel free, a lot of men like that shit. I get called that all the time by someone I know I don’t get a big head about it. Since she was Puerto Rican I kept telling her continue with ‘Papi’ as well; we like that shit too like Chris Rock said before “No man can resist Papi!” and it sometimes builds up our egos. Especially during sex (why lie?). I know a few women will disagree with calling their significant other a pet name like that and I understand insecurity can do that to you. On the flipside what’s the perfect pet name to use in a lady case? Big momma? I guess as a man it’s as long as you don’t offend; besides it’s the tone of the voice that seals the deal

I’m putting this game up on blast because this is the closest im going to get to having actual Rims of any size. Y’see me and rims have this Love hate relationship. I love how they shine and look cool but I absolutely hate the affect they have on people, how much they cost and what my people’ll do to get them or be next to them or riding in a car with them.

My manager at the computer lab told me once he got 20” rims put on his car he was approached by hoes everyday. I told him good you know what their after so use them as such. Personally, im all about the 4 commandments if a broad ever tried to get with me for material goods.

Shut up. Get in. SUCK. Get out!

Personally I feel that’s all their worth. My friend K, got rims put in her car by her Ex (Sorry girl but I had to prove a point.) She was the 2nd lady I knew that the men in their life put rims on their car. Now that’s love to spend 2 G’s of your hard earned money to put on someone else’s car to rock. I couldn’t see myself doing that, not even to my own family as evil as that sounds. Anyway she tells me how men try to talk to her since she got them. It’s the damn Ghetto fabulous status that ticks me off. To tell you the truth most of the car’s I see don’t even deserve them because they look more expensive than the fugging car. There’s a few places near me that gives you the option of layaway and monthly payment financing, that shit is nuts to me.

Christopher Priest Hit it right on the head with this Statement:

"Memo to people who buy BIG GIANT SHINY RIMS—the kind that KEEP SPINNING after you stop—for your huge, gas-guzzling SUV’s: YOU LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT"

The other day I saw a 2005 escalade on 26”. I was more scared that shit was gonna spin out of control than I was impressed he had the money to ruin his ride. Another factor I hate is when dude buy new expensive cars and put rims on them. I personally feel the Bentleys’ speak for themselves while adding rims is overkill. I wouldn’t dare rock any in my neighborhood anyway since there are too many thieves about just waiting to eventually jack them. In conclusion, If you got money to burn and a lot of people feel they do, feel free and rock you some. I’ll wait till their under 500 bucks thats the only time i'll consider copping them. If i get them, best believe I didnt buy them myself.

What Happened?!

That was the start of the conversation that my instructor/advisor asked me when he looked over my final I barely passed with a D-. I told him that my main objective was to get down the lingo of the book that we started with. I neglected studying the handouts we received during the class which led to my blank short answers. He asked me once he got my final paper/script what 3 things could be changed if I had the ability. I told him smaller cast, more plot and better ending. He immediately turned my score into a 65, oh joy a D. Yay! I told him how useful the class was since I plan on submitting a comic book script soon. What he told me was something that hit me on the head since I didn’t realize. Comic books and Graphic novels are basically storyboards to a possible motion picture. That made perfect sense; I mean why wouldn’t directors like Hudlin & Smith get deals to write the books. It definitely brought about just a taste of more ambition and inspiration to make something happen. One final’s down and another to go.

I headed to my fave DVD hobby shop I picked up 2 flicks one called Born to Fight by the director of Ong Bak so I’m hoping at least the action is as good. And a Blaxploitation classic called Coonskin a.k.a. Street fight. I asked the owner about wholesale fees for the purpose of selling them on eBay. He told me it’ll be a grand to get started. A “G” that I didn’t have at the moment, but he told me he’d work with me for at least half.

I finally got me some cheap Nike from Eastbay catalog under 50 bucks. I refuse to pay 200 for kicks; which is why you won’t see me with Jordans on from my own money.

I’m working with the bastards tomorrow and Friday while studying for my final Monday. whoopee

Think about these...Go ahead.

1. Name one Samuel Jackson starring Movie where He doesn’t yell.

2. Name one Morgan Freeman starring Movie where He Runs!

3. Name one Cuba Gooding Jr. starring Movie where He doesn’t cry.

Now that the semester’s over ive come to a crossroads if you will. Y’see my dilemma deals with work. The computer lab has not changed their times to 8-5pm but I usually sub during those times. What it comes down to is work somewhere where I dislike is very stressful but gets paid more; or work at a place where I get paid peanuts but is very stress free. I’ve already made my decision due to bills piling up and since the school year is ending in another month I wont be there much longer.

My fall semester’s over and soon I will be out of work of both jobs during the summer. And my landlord/mother is threatening to evict me like she usually does if I skip any payment of rent at all. At the moment my only hope of currency is to enroll full time in school during the summer. That way I can still work for the computer lab and keep money coming in.

In the meantime I’ve been hustling like crazy creating a good visual business plan of what I want to do on the side and how I will implement it. I made out some brief b-cards with my symbol being a phoenix (I will rise again, on my momma!) When im not doing those I’m submitting resumes all over the state and beyond. I’m taking K’s advice and submit resume’s even if your half qualified and read between the lines. I admit my negativity keeps me from seeing the logic in this but I’ll take her word for it and just do it since I got shit else to lose.