A Bitter View

I completed a whole week at a new school being a sub. My first day was with 8th graders. I felt they were no different than any other kids at different schools they knew what they could do when the real teacher's there and what they could'nt. Tuesday thru Thursday I had a class of 2nd graders. Man are they clingy. I should've expected that. One of the kids told me i reminded them of their cousin's boyfriend. "You look just like him oooooo!" I wrote down most of my thoughts while i was there. Here are some of them.

* Why is one of the kids named after a alcholic drink?

* These kids work very fast. Are they smart or are they just lazy and fill in words to say theyre completed.

My last thought was when the kids went to do the Pledge one of the kids looked at me and didnt face the flag. I told her to turn around. One of the kids hollered out "she doesnt say the pledge because she doesnt believe in god" Now when I heard that my first thought was maybe they were mistaking the pledge with religion. I started to say she was un-patriotic and becasue her last name was muhammad I assumed she was a muslim. It was a new problem that i didnt know how to handle. I told her to face the flag but hold her head down. It was the firstand only thing I could think of.

The teacher had a little container of M&Ms I ate them all. She confronted me about them and I just told her i'll replace them next time I come back.

Friday was my worst day I had 3rd graders. They like to say "Ya mama" a lot. They love to yell at each other and call each other names as well. The alpha female was like Deebo! She threatened everyone. "Shut up, fo' ah knock yo butt out!" One girl was so damn musty it was unbearable. When ever she approached me i had to step back the funk was THAT strong. She knew she was ripe as hell all the kids did too. why did she have to raise her armpits in my direction as well? ugh. I stopped 2 fights in my class as well. That really makes me look good. and through all that; they all still believe each other still have the cooties. hmph.

If anyone needs a new Monitor im selling one on craigslist. here

My cousin does a local show throughout the city called V.I.P. TV while i'm the webmaster working on a new site for him. Theyve been doing big thangs showing off their clips through the net. One clip in particular which i feel is dope yet might be stolen soon enough is their segment called the Hot Seat. Turn off your P blockers, Peep the video by clicking on the image and you'll see what I mean.

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Monday was the day things changed. My 2nd interview with the president went smoothly. I came home to recieve a phone call from the company 2 hours after we met. Today after I taught 5th graders (who were very good today so I knew something was up) I came straight home and returned their call. It was then the pres offered me the job. A sigh of relief and joy came accross my face for this was a long time coming. I start friday. the pay is kinda low but growth in the firm is high and they will reinburse me for my traveling through tolls. I instantly told the 2 favorite ladies in my life that I landed the gig. I'm gonna still go to my other interview tomorrow morning. Its only a part time gig anyway and asd much as i would like to work both people are already telling me it would kill me. Anyway celebration is in order 4 sho'

I totally missed the point of last boondocks episode. Then a friend broke it down for me. Did yall catch on to what the episode was about. When they were going after the xbox killer they decided not go after him, instead they went to a store. In the store there were some arabs. The white boy with the W on was george bush, and the other was chaney. They pull a gun on the owner and convince the cop that he had a gun which he didnt (weapon of mass destruction). The shop owner looked like saddam. The other 2 arabs in the store were people trying to protect there store (home). The cop gets shot all up just like the military. The xbox killer represented bin laden. They knew where he was but they didnt go stop him. hmmn...

DDP really needs money to sue Jigga for a hand sign.

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1. Do you like birthdays? Do you celebrate them? Why/why not?

I try to celebrate them. Its the anniversary of life why wouldnt you want to? I also make sure that if i know its someones birthday I try to definetly wish them one.

2. What's the best thing about turning another year older? What's the worst?

You feel more mature when your a year older. Its like something's telling you that youve reached another level. The worst is the feeling that you havent accomplished what you wanted at your previous age.

3. Have you ever had trouble with a certain number birthday (21, 25, 30, 40)? If so, why? How'd you handle it?

Well I feel now that i've hit 30 this is the age im still coming to terms with. Especially since i'll be 1 year older next month. I wish i could stay 28-29 much longer. Thbere were times when i taught the kids asked me how old I was I wouldnt outright tell them i'd let them guess. I'd stop them at 29. I still see myself that old. I also realize in a way I am lying. Now I under stand why some ladies lie about their age.

Bonus: If you could take a guess, how old do you think you'll live to be?

Thats something in the future I dont even want to think about. Living day to day suits me fine.

Everyone should stand and give a final applause in his memory. Without him any other black comedians wouldnt have gotten where they are. Man, imma miss you! I hope heaven rolls in laughter when you appear.

Don't compare me to jokes/ I'll strangle the air in your throat/ Like you jump from a chair and choke
In mid-air from a rope/ Got a big gun and carry a scope/
The flair of the smoke/ Keep niggaz quiet like words that librarians spoke/
I'm arrogant, outlandish/ Blow your face out, and shake out the dandruff/
The jakes wont make out the handprints/
I'm as real as it gets, with the steel and the clips/ Bark and make niggaz duck, and kneel and do splits
~ Elzhi "Hiding Place" form Little Brother's The Minstrel Show.

Inspired by Beats and Rants, since its the 4th quarter I had to go back and remmenice what tracks I rocked the most of this year on my RCA Lyra. So here they are in no particular order:

• De la Soul – Church
• Sean Price – Boom Bye Yeah
• 9^th Wonder & Buckshot – I don’t know why
• Devin the Dude – Kooter Brown
• Cassidy - I’m a Hustler
• 50 cent – just a lil bit
• Maspyke – Step
• M.I.A. – Gulang
• Bizzare ft. Devin the Dude & BigBoi – Porno Bitches
• Bumpy Johnson – Move around
• Esthero – Thank heaven for you
• Royksopp – Beautiful Day without you
• Dan-E-O – Spittin Raw
• Little Brother – hiding place ft. Elhzi
• Oh No – Perceptions
• Tony Yayo – So Seductive
• Strong arm Steady Crew - Shame on a nigga ft. Talib Kweli & Chace Infinite
• Common - The Corner rmx ft. Scarface & Mos Def

This site tries to explain the Fall of Chappelle's Show. The theory is far-fetched but interesting read: The chappelle theory

I'm grown now, so Christmas is just another day for me. This year will go down in imfamy, I am too damn broke right now to buy anyone gifts. Im in debt with my bank, PLS and the State for unpaid tickets.. The commute also helps keep a dent in my pocket. I'm riding on negatives on my Ipass. I feel i need a part time job to get financially straight again. I told my fam there will be no gifts this year and they'll have to deal with it. When they ask me why, I scream the reason like Dave Chappelle "A'hm Broke nigga, A'm Broke!" They replied "We're used to it."

Damn. Fuck ya'll too...
If my shit gets shut down, enjoy ya holidae!

Thankfully I wasn’t down for long. I just got paid and I was able to cover some of my immediate small debts (like this one in particular) and get on the road to being straight again.

The jobs good but hella slow. Nobody’s calling for help around the holidays and its worrying me if it'll pick up. I know it will cuz they wouldn’t have hired me for nuttin. The commute adds up to 100 miles a day, 50 to and 50 back. I'm told that the company has an office downtown and once I get the hang of things they'll try to put me there. I hope they do. My used car is already at 100,000 and gaining.

The commute drains me and as soon as I hit home I go straight to my room. My brother thinks im depressed and won’t believe otherwise. Since I don’t drink coffee I try to perk up by taking Vitamin B complex pills and trying out that 5 hour energy drink (potent shit!). They work, no doubt but when I wake up I feel groggier than before. Go figure. Anyway i got sum shit opn my mind i wanna try out on here and starting tomorrow i'll do that.

Just found out my Cuz got his own on Blogger. Some of his ideas are dope enough for me borrow. I asked him too. He just laughed. He thinks I’m kiddin...

*** BTW: Good Lookin Out Sun! :) ***

Sittin here Bored at the job, reading the dating articles on MSN, coz I need lots of help :). I was peeping their entry on the 5 types of women to date. Now I reviewing it with a friend she claims she’s all in one because she’s been in most of those roles except one. I figured she would go there and as I read the types of women it shows how inexperienced I am. I really don’t have anybody to blame but me but at the same time it’s like the women I come across have the problem and not me. Sheeit, don’t get me wrong I have problems I’m self conscious of like any other person. Realizing I’m a single black male with a good job live away from my parents w/ no kids and my own place why am I having trouble? But to find the reason within me as to why im so unlucky is hard to pinpoint. Let me get right to the list of ladies and my experiences with all of them in a direct or indirect way.

Type #1: The Older Woman
I’ve tried to date a few older women especially when I was younger than I am and when it came down to was 2 reasons. I was unattracted to them or just flat out intimidated by them. Y’see currently there’s a female 6 years older than me and the main element that intimidated me when I was 23 is now menial at 30. The older women I meet that are into me have no problem telling me how horny they are. Hell, I was 22 when I officially lost the big “V” and because of the experience did to my ego; I was ready to become a monk and do away with sex altogether but that was the loser route in my view and when talking to these women it just came down to not being ready to give what these ladies wanted. The pipe wasn’t ready to lay so to speak. Then there’s the fact that they may be divorced w/ kids with something else altogether. The current lady im not feeling physically, but her sweetness is making me weak and she proved that when we were at the theatre and I got the chills and she snuggled on me to warm me. I wasnt expecting that.

Type #2: The Guy’s Girl
I feel this is the female who likes what I like, yet I have yet to find her while most of my boys are quick to get them somehow and marry them. I can’t call it. The closest chance I had to having one I blew it because I didn’t realize the hints she was giving me. I usually end up with the opposite the “girly girl” who without fail love to rip on me when I’m not around about our date. I’ve learned to avoid any broad who claims their one.

Type #3: The Free Spirit
Again another type of woman that eludes me because their quick to give hints and I just don’t get them till years later. For me to find a lady like this would go hand in hand with the so called “Guys’ girl” and someone who knows my view of being open-minded without having to explain.

Type #4: The Brainy Chick
Well I would love a brainy chick, someone to help me learn something different but at the same time won’t take on the persona that she’s better than me or try to control/shape me to fit her. If she feel’s she has to “dumb herself down to my level” then take your Einstein ass and find someone who has a better I.Q. That’s a particular problem I have when it come to those kinds of broads.

Type #5: The Seductress
HA! Gotta laugh at this one. Now in my case I’ve never been that lucky to have a lady want to be sexy for me. The majority of this type I’ve seen I classify as straight out hoes & bitches. Naw, just bitches coz they fucked everyone around them but me. LOL

Yeah, that pretty much summed up my experiences with those personalites in a nutshell, although they may sound bitter because i shouldnt roll baggage over when that person finally comes along. I'm working on that.