I decided since I was trying to be serious with her, knowing each other for 4 years and getting serious. I felt it was time to let my momma know the person who I want to be with. I knew going in it would be a bad idea. She’s not internet savvy and only goes by what she knows on the news and Investigative reports. But deep inside I felt she should know about her since im really considering moving out there, a jump to another state is a something unknown and yet exciting. I wanna rep the Chi Till I die, but if I can be better and grow elsewhere then I’m all for it. I may be unemployed right now but I feel as content like never before. I have nothing to loose and so much to gain and I wanted to share it with the first and always most important woman in my life.
BIG. MISTAKE.
Of course she blew her head up when I told moms about her. She instantly claims that I’m gonna die if I go out there being with “somebody that I’ve never met in person” To her the net means no more than going to prison and having a pen pal. It frustrated me that she kept saying that to me but I held my ground and told her im going regardless. She thinks whatever I got wating on me there I could get here. she asked me if I was so desperate that I had to find someone in another state. I got offended and I asked her why couldn’t she be happy for me and her answer was that I was making a foolish choice. Whatever. Everyone I’ve told has gave me support and assured me to go where my heart directs me while she believes their laughing behind my back calling me crazy. My mother on the other hand wouldn’t consider it unless I had a job here that’ll relocate me. I told her that wasn’t happening. And yet through all of this, she wouldn’t admit the true reason she wouldn’t want me to go. She feels she’ll lose me. I already know the deal, I could tell when she would say “They gonna kill my boy” She’s silly like that. But regardless I’m gonna do it and see what another state can offer me in this N.U.B. Plus, it isn’t like I can’t return if it doesn’t work out with both. One thing’s for sure though: I. Am. Going.