A Bitter View

My lady wanted to know what "Skeet Skeet" meant. All her black friends refused to tell her. I felt since we're in a temporarly long distance relationship i'd tell her. Now she's wiser. Plus, she told me thats what i'll be doing once she puts it on me. lol!

There’s something I’ve noticed lately when I talk about my undies to my lady friend I sense the preference of Boxers to Briefs. Hell, I felt wearing briefs were better cuz the ladies can see what you’re packing. But now I feel ladies prefer the boxers. I aint gonna lie I like wearing my tighty whites. I tried boxers back in high school but they felt like I was wearing real shorts. I had to put on my whiteys under them just to feel secure. Well when my lady told me she preferred boxers as well I decided to get the training wheels: the boxer briefs. I’ll try them, I have a feeling im not gonna like them though.

Denver was dope!

I truly felt at home and enjoyed what I could encounter. I went to the Stanley Hotel Where the Shining was filmed. It was very misleading from the movies. No outside maze. Room 217 was at the end of the hall on the 2nd floor in all its spookiness. Their snowstorms are milder than here since the mountains absorb most of the wind and ice so the city gets none but they do need salt trucks. The clubs were live too. A multiracial club that plays only hip-hop! Totally a different experience than the segregation in the Chi. Since its the west coast They rocked old school West coast hip-hop and recent stuff on the radio. They love Sean Paul & Twista ova there. Taggers didnt give a fuck spraying every bulding with something. I was just glad to see no gang signs. The city's more spread out, I dig it. I got a feeling this city is more like a "what you know" than a "who you know" when it comes to employment. Plus the cost of living is low I could get a apt for 400 a month. I'm definetly coming back if not permantly.

Would I move out there no doubt! It won’t be as soon as I thought though. The female whom I foolishly called my gf played me. She basically used me to help out her house and kids. We barely spent any time together. Our last night together she told me I was too slow for her and wasn’t man enough for her and her kids. I felt she wanted a robot and needs psychiatric help. She compared me to her father saying I wasn’t and couldn’t be him. I wasn’t trying to. She wanted someone to take the ball and run and I’m not like that, I needed to feel everyone out. After helping clean the house of her nasty ass ant and bedbug infested house she chews me out for keeping the windows open the whole time. I'm back in the chi, been single, broke as hell, unemployed and now a little heartbroken. I don’t regret going at all yet I do feel rejection on a whole new level. I come home to an email telling me what was between us was over and to not contact her again in any way. What kind of childish Bullshit is that? She couldt tell me this to my face? She couldnt call me to tell me this? I don’t have anything else to say to her anyway. I'm glad I didn’t fuck her. I got a fresh box of cond...

AHEM. Sorry I let the bitterness come out too much.

So why do I feel after 5 days elsewhere everyones changed but me? hmmn...

Its been 2 days now and i'm still depressed about Ms. Loony in denver. Madvillain's Fancy Clown, Ne-Yo's So Sick & Sean Price's Heart Burn are in my music heavy rotation right now so I guess I got it bad ya'll. I took myself to the store and all I copped was alchohol and Junk food. Now that my moms know she's filling my brothers head that I'm jealous of him now. Why? I don't know. What The Fuck Ever...