I think about the time that my fam, my job interviewers and those I call friends ask me what I want to do in life. I tell them the same thing to get them off my back. “I see myself as an entrepreneur running a multimedia business.” Some are impressed while some just give an “ok” but they don’t know my true drive. Just to be real, I don’t know my true drive either. If you were to ask me when I was in the single digits I would’ve told you I wanted to be in baseball. When high school came along I wanted to be an actor. Now I feel im at the age where I should be established at a gig that I have been with for a few years but that hasn’t happened. There are a few things I would like to do, yet I don’t see them as a career.
I want to find a place where I fit in and stay. I want to pinpoint the reasons I’m not succeeding and then eliminate them. What truly irks me is that I have a degree and everyone I know that has a degree is struggling; especially from my school. Those who have attended school and dropped out come off as doing much better than me. Maybe my drive to succeed isn’t strong enough to achieve any goals. I try to apply my ideas and make something of myself but it’s before the plans become real that my research shows they’ve already been done. What a blow. Man, I want to succeed badly but I don’t know at what. I hope to make something happen in the next 10 years.