A Bitter View

Out of pocket is a term we in the chi (don't know if anyone else uses it) use when we do or say something that was out of line, uncalled for, etc. I’ve said a few things to people who care about me things out of pocket and most of the time I realize it. Then there are time I could give a fuck less, I guess that’s the dark side of me basting its juices. Anyway this term come to me today because I feel I was for a moment.

When I worked at the dollar store; There was a co-worker named Francine. She has been at the store since it opened back in the late 80’s. She always did her thing and didn’t complain, for my tastes a little too docile. Anyway for someone being there that long I figured she would be considered for manager but never made the promotion.

After I left the place (quit that is) she stayed and over the years every time I came back to the place the workers change but she stays! The only constant. It puzzled the hell outta me. Just today I needed to get some of that generic oxy-clean that they sell (can't afford the real stuff). There she was as usual at her cash register. I didn’t know if she remembered me but I had to say something I’ve been curious for years seeing her there. I mean, she should know the store like the back of her hand. Once she ran my thang through I asked “Fran, Are you manager yet!?” after hearing that her face dropped and then slightly turned to the register for a second as if to say “rub it in huh, muthafugga!” then she replied “No, but I want to be!” Think about that look I wonder, was that something I should’ve asked? Maybe I should’ve left it alone knowing how words can affect someone. I think she was probably scared of success. A nice number of people are. Aw well, regardless I got my answer.