A Bitter View

My bad!

I survived the heat. What is it about the humidity that makes me weak, lethargic and all out lazy! I felt like i didnt want to do shit! and i did'nt too! No eating much, no going out much, just stay inside and sleep. I plan to get back writing again. I just gotta get my hunger and energy back.

Problem #1,2,3

Good: Wizard world was this pastweekend.
Bad: I couldn’t go
Fucked up: My car died on me. Needed a alternator and new brakes. I owe Giordanno's $20
next time I order a pizza for the one I couldnt pick up.

Problem #3,4,5

Good: I connected with a street mechanic and he hooked me up for dirt cheap. I just brought the parts
Bad: I couldn’t afford it so I had to ask family for financial help
Fucked up: The car died on me, AGAIN! Transmisson's shot 20 miles away from home which I walked.

Problem #5,6,7

Good: met another street mechanic that can repair what the last one couldn’t for cheap!
Bad: Still had no money so I had to borrow from family again to tow and pay.
Fucked up: I’m without a car for a few days. 5-0 gave me a ticket for leaving it.

Moral to the story: I need a real fucking job. no minimum wage BS either, something over 400 a week so I can pay people off. 99 problems but a broad aint one. HA!

Well it was taking me a minute to think of something to type about because I aint living sweet at all. I’m tired of making depressed posts so I had to come off with something different. I’ll start with the good things that happened this week.

Since my ride is in the shop, my manager helped me through the week by letting me take most of it off. I only had to come in one day and he covered me the other days I wasn’t there. I was paid for not being there.

K & Philly bred hooked me up with job leads. Good looking out.

I lost 5 pounds walking.

I watched Superman Returns (straight), X3 (Tight), Lady in the water (weak), Clerks II (straight), My Super Ex-Girlfriend (Tight), Little Man (weak), Click (Tight).

SinRo’s Movie/Music Ratings
Fiyah! – Highest Possible Recommendation
Tight – Quite Entertaining
Straight – Check it out on your own risk or wait for rental
Weak – Wait for Cable
Wack – If you ever me the execs that greenlighted this bullshit. Steal on ‘im!

My manager decided to take me to my first Strip club Friday night for my spirits. I always said I wouldn’t go to one because I don’t like to be teased. I was like fugg it since he was buying drinks. The broads must’ve saw "vic" on my forehead since they were all over me for a lap dance. I aint trickin’ off $20 for a 3 minute song even if I had it. They gettin all between my legs and i'm trying to tighten them up since I was rockin sweat pants. I hated how they could touch you and you could only touch their waists. Although before I walked out the door, this tall thick light-skinned honey wit a fatty stepped out to dance and that would have been my weakness. I would’ve sang the T-pain song if she came my way. Lol

Hopefully this week will be much better.

The semesters over. I got a B in my business and professional speaking class. Im estatic about that. Still waiting on my 2nd grade.

My car Is back. Runs smooth but still need another part installed.

I got 2 interviews. one in Indiana and another in Dundee. Both are far and require transportation to get there.

My school has bulletins that a new Quiznos was opening. I gotta make some money immediatly so i'm applying.

Many times through out the week I stumble over different topics I want to share over this site but somehow I forget them and I end up writing about how screwed up my life is right now. Do I have AADD? Am I gonna have to rock a pad and write them down? Why does my brain think these things are so insignificant that I let em go? Maybe it’s my depression working on me.

Bill collector asked me if there's anything i can give to him. I dont remember how but we got into a convo and she asked me "Do you got a girlfriend?" I told him I couldnt afford one if I wanted to. He laughed. Its cool I can still make someone else's day.

My university’s dept is hiring for media assistants for 2 days a week. I’m down. One of my old instructors sent my resume to the person I needed to see. Hopefully he’ll call. I may end up having 2 jobs at the school I’m attending. Oh the irony.

The grammar schools near me are starting the new school year. I’ve received a call to be on an active substitute list. I’ve read that doing what you don’t want to do is what makes you responsible. I sure don’t want to sub anymore, but beggars can’t be choosers. Besides, the kids'll give me new mess to write about.

My interview in Dundee was cool me and the project manager got along well. He realized that I needed work immediately. It was the main reason he got this job himself 9 months ago. The firm specializes in nuclear plant factories. He showed me the blueprints of a project he would like to hire me for. I would be helping him make sense of the prints and writing what we’ve labeled. Easy shit. I thought it was cool and something like this you would only hear about in film/TV. I was warned the work was tedious, but I didn’t care, to know that I had something to do with a fuggin nuclear power plant’s daily functions made me want to jump in and say “yes”! They had a brotha feeling like the new FireStorm but unfortunately, they couldn’t guarantee me permanent work there. The transportation would be murder on my car (100 miles a day total, w/ no public transportation).

Man It seems like the higher the version number of the movable type upgrade the harder it is to actually upgrade it. I was about to say fugg-it and switch to wordpress. Matter of fact thats a good idea. What's keeping me on MT? This style's colors is fruity but in time i'll tweak one to my liking.

School put me on Acaemic suspension because after getting 2 B's which is about C level to be a graduate student my GPA was STILL UNDER FUCKING 5 POINTS. NMy best wasnt good enough. ow im jobless again. I hate this world and what you gotta do to survive in it. I'm going into F.T.W. mode from now on. I gotta become what society expects of me.